A thought provoking tale. Or maybe not!

It's been so long since I last wrote something...
Since I last wrote something for MYSELF.

The last, I remember, was an outburst.
A very ugly one that too.
People said it was very well written. Some said "Dudette, looks like you're in a lotta pain"...but truth be told, I was just numb. It was a mere outburst from tired of being so numb.
Enough said about the numb now, I have moved on.

I have grown up so much in the past 5 months...it makes me laugh!
How wonderful my life has become.
Been lonely, yes, but my family and my bestie's been too much of a help to not recover.
Oh! And work too.
I've had no idea where all the 5 months flew by, wherein, I completed an entire post grad thesis, while interning for some very cool people, went back to the very annoying Capital of Rape, (Read: NOIDA), realised how much I loved Delhi (just the place, and not the people, thank you very much), appeared for the last papers of my life, bid adieu to some of the most wonderful friends I've made for this lifetime, and a childhood friend (My "Local Guardian" apparently, who's FYI, younger to me!), and the most wonderful, and friendliest of professors who helped my through and through for 2 full years. God alone knows the countless things I bade adieu to, that I would fondly remember all through my life...(yes okay! I got carried away, alright! Continuing...) got myself a really cool job (which was so effing hard to understand in the initial days, pardon my language, that I was ready to go back to studying), made interesting new acquaintances...

Well, in a gist, in the last 5 months, I have pretty much moved on. And been happy. AND I have learnt the most important thing in life. No matter what you wana tell people, no matter what you wana share (Read in closely. Golden words coming up! *Red Alert*), be it a post, an email, or even this blog of a thing,

CAN BE SCHEDULED!

Well, might be shocking to many, might come as a pleasant surprise, or a happy Happy HAPPY news, or just a "Duh! I know that you dumb skitch. Old News!" to most of the people I am currently associated with...but, for me, it's a simple realization of the fact that nothing, *in all caps*, is so important that can't be dealt with, later! So, as much as the 'Schedule' key is a sigh of relief for all the Social Media Managers in the world, it's also a leverage, or rather has a message hidden behind, claiming, there IS room for mistake. There's a place to be human. in this awkwardly-smart and fast moving world. You CAN pick up after yourself to clean your own mess.

Wondering if I'm still on the note which I had begun on?
Let me make it easier for you. The answer is: NO. Like duh!
Situations change, thoughts change, life changes...so much for a little note on a blog!

It's just a realization that worrying yourself to misery is of no help. Schedule the worry for later and think straight for that moment, things are ought to fall in place. I probably just did that during the whole "numb" phase and got over it. Or whatever.
Okay, lost my touch.
Should end already.

Not a Man Eater...NO!

 

 

She said "You are a Man Eater".
Well, I must be, because after all, a loving sibling I thought her to be.

 

 

 

Life was getting too monotonous for her. The same old acquaintances who pretended to be friends, the same old friends who behaved like acquaintances, the same old food, the same old people, the same old routine - wake up, get ready, to for classes, eat, come back, take a nap, wake up, complete a day's task, finish dinner, watch a movie, go back to bed. There was a time when the same old too started getting the same old.

She thought to herself, "Enough! I have to step a foot down, put an end to my misery." and started chalking out her life.


"So you want to play with me?" thought her fate. "You are a foolish little captive to my whims and blatantly-made sudden decisions; a puppet one may say. It is not so easy to run free off my captivity. If you ever try running away from me, be sure that I will hunt you down and put a fine end to your dreams."


She found herself a new home, a new family, a sibling-like friend, or was she a friend-like sibling? They laughed together, shared their lives together, cried in times of misery. She praised her new-found soul sister's every move, and loved her as she'd her own self.

Little did she know, how much she was hated and judged at every step for her below average looks, for being the fat gloat that she was, for her mirror breaking image. Why? Because no matter what her looks were, she knew how to win hearts. Her new-found soul sister wanted all the love to herself. "You are new here, not a part of my life here. How can you be loved by the ones who love me?"

So she picked up her bags, bid her new life adieu, and with tears in her eyes said "Dear sister, no matter what you think of me, I would always want the good things in life for you. If your happiness lies in my absence, then so be it."


And she went back to the open arms of her fate, who finally said,
"My precious little darling,
you have found the correct gate,
open them and come running to me,
a new life is surely to await.

If not today,
then tomorrow will be,
a new beginning, a new life,
a gift from me to you, where happiness is set."


She thought to herself, "Someday I will prove it to the world - I am not half as bad as I was projected before", and she dreamed on about a life of happiness galore.